In June I will be running the race for life.
the money raised will go towards finding a cure for cancer.
my dad died from cancer and im sure you know someone who has had it or effected by it.
please find it in your heart to sponsor me. even if its just a few pounds/dollar.
love to you all!
CANCER WE’RE COMING TO GET YOU!
july 7th. 100k. cycling. lets do this!
in one week of being semi raw vegan and 4 days exercise i have:
lost 1lb 2oz in weight.
1 inch of my waist
1.5 inches of my hips!
i feel a lot better in myself too. :) clean food, clean body!
currently weighing in at 124.6lbs.
i shall take photos in a little bit.
Medjool dates - oh my God. I have never actually eaten these until recently so I never knew how beautiful they tasted. They are just so fluffy, and gooey, and multi-textural and sweet and they make me contemplate the meaning of life.
Why do people eat candy when these bad boys exist? They are nature’s marshmallow toffees.
i finally bought some fresh medjool dates! jesus! they are gorgeous! a bit expensive but nom nom nom
today i ate chocolate cake.
guilty guilty cake!
Well today i did about bi-polar disorder at college.
It all seamed to close to home. I have suffered with depression on and off for about 6 years. Some days are worse than others, the bad days are the ones where i sleep for 16hours, then have no energy and have thoughts of suicide. this can last for a couple of hours or weeks. This is really bad after fetish play.
Today i realised that maybe i don’t have on/off depression maybe its something else. then they started talking about manic highs…. this led me to thinking maybe my exercise behavior was my highs… when i feel everything is moving to slow and im finally at a speed that makes sense for along portion of the day, i sit and twitch because i need to do something. maybe my cycles of fetish play are when i’m on a high. i feel like i need sex now! i need to feel something! i go from wanting sex 2-6 times a day with a lot of what is considered dangerous play to wanting no sex at all. I my highs arn’t manic, but im scared they might get there.
i assume that this is considered normal mental health? maybe it is? maybe we’re all bananas!